THANKS FOR BEING AROUND

" To walk when progress seems futile,
And to love when I know it can be lost;
To live when I am down everyday,
And to loose what I have loved the most;
Oh my friend I wish you knew how much I need you."


Sometimes in life, I have received things so unexpectedly, that I find it impossible to sum up the feeling in words. One moment it feels as if, it was never for me and the other moment, I realize that it had always been waiting out there for me to walk over it. How do I react to it? How do I express my happiness and gratitude for it? How do I know that sometimes life will be far more kinder to me than I can expect and how do I realize that there’ll be times when all I want from life is the love and affection of a single person.

Walking alone feels lonely sometimes. Not sharing a dream with someone makes it difficult to dream further. Not knowing that you have someone to look back to, when you are tired and defeated makes progress an onus and not realizing that you can help someone realize her dreams makes living seem futile. Sometimes life’s all about sharing, about understanding and about dreaming. Living just happens, and everything else just follows.

I am walking through a phase where ‘bliss’ is my buzzword. Everyday’s pain, struggle, defeats and ennui don’t seem to run me down and it’s because I feel I am sharing and dreaming. And am dreaming real big, for my world and for my life. Every time something pulls me back, I have a dream that propels me forward, and the feeling that I share that dream with someone is what makes dreaming all the way so beautiful.

I am writing this, because I feel a deep sense of admiration, gratitude and love for someone. A friend, co-dreamer, partner and philosopher (sophist) who has found a great faith in dreaming with me, listening to me and making me realize that I am worth what I think myself to be. This is to tell you buddy that you have been a truly amazing source of inspiration, calm and achievement. It feels great to sit with you, talk with you and share with you. This is again to tell you that, life would have been weirdly different without your company and support. Like you always say ‘one can only connect the dots looking backwards’, I realize now why sometimes one finds so much of purpose in life and why one feels that everything happens for a reason. I have a feeling for you which I don’t have a language to express, but will nevertheless try to make some sense of these weird feelings by turning through these pages and making myself read, what has been the loveliest thing I’ve read in ages. Thanks for everything and thanks for the beautiful gift below:

“When I have learned to live alone,
When I have learned to withstand failures;
When I have learned to live with problems,
When I was walking on a nebulous path;
Unsure of my destination, only carrying vague ambition.

A friend came in my life, and changed my life altogether,
He changed problems to challenges;
He changed short term plans to long term plans,
He inspired me to dream;
He inspired me to believe,
He made me realize, my worth;
He made me realize my potential,
He admonished me to be sincere;
And finally he admonished me to be patient.

And now when I join the dots backwards,
I realize why I came here;
I realize, why I had never ending problems,
I realize why I was always confused.

How far we’ll be friends, I don’t know,
But one thing I know;
Every time he cares, every time he shares,
Every time he’s cold and every time he scolds;
Time is just beautiful.”

If I were to sing a song now, owing to how I feel about everything, it'll be this: